Cain and Abel (cont'd)
They are you, and I, and each of us together. The previous descriptions of Cain unveil you, me or any of us when we are engaged with any endeavor to better ourselves in this world of illusion. Cain is the egoistic, self-conscious half of us that desires all what this world can promise, albeit all illusion, but feeds our delusions nonetheless. As some of the gematria implied, our self-conscious mind is the ‘arranger, the shaper’ who later ‘laments’ some of our best made plans when they go awry. Then self-consciousness turns ‘dark’ and ‘jealous’ and ‘angry and wrathful.’ Childish, are we not?
For any of us to acquire more, to achieve desires over the other Cains in this world we must, in a sense, kill off that Abel within us. He represents our conscience in the narrative. Conscience (Abel) is that sub-conscious mode within us that is united far more closely with the super-conscious Creator within. Abel is the sub-conscious innocent one, loving and devoted to serve and to do best as possible whatever the egotistical and maniacal self-conscious mind directs because sub-consciousness is amenable to suggestions from the self-conscious level. However, this is against all the laws of nature, and in our deep level of conscience we are all aware, feel and know about that somewhat, although it is buried or even killed off as in the case of a sociopath.
Our conscience knows when we are bending or pushing the inconvenient truth away for a ‘higher’ – well, supposedly better at least – purpose of self aggrandizement. The rightful position and purpose of the sub-conscious is to hear and receive all suggestions from super-conscious direction. To do that calls for reigning in those self-conscious egoistic desires that beguile. “Well, to hell with that!” is the typical self-conscious knee-jerk response.
Take heart, however, because our Cain, perpetually slaying our Abel as we go through the life, is at his core, innocent as well. How? In the name of קין, Cain, is the answer in that his number is 160, shown above. He, you, I, each of us is נקי, nakiy, ‘blameless, innocent.’ The same letters interchanged. This does not mean we can go about creating all manner of distress to others, harming ourselves because we are innocent. We shall always be called to balance every slight under the laws of Karma. We are 'innocent' in the sense that at that level we simply do not know what we are doing. We are ignorant of the Self and its relation with everything else.
Why is this? Because our Creator's original Intent was to create a physical world for the sole purpose of giving pleasure. To accomplish this it was necessary to imbue the creative substance, that ‘day’ LIGHT of which all creation is composed, with a will to receive pleasure from the Creator through all our senses. The result is all we are experiencing surrounding us. All the architecture, inventions, designs, styles, arts, sciences, medicines, technologies, religions, philosophies, learning, achieving, playing, seeing, hearing, tasting, smelling and touching evolved to appease one or another sense of pleasure, never ending.
Then, due to our compounded and confounded 'innocence', there is the flip side because we forgot the Creator, or never thought of Him in the first place, or down the line we simply stopped receiving the Light, which brings on a sort of special shame. So all the pain, anguish, sorrow, avarice, lust, slavery, crime, hate, prejudice, war, killing, maiming, destruction, drugs and pollution that is bringing us to the brink has evolved because of our greed for concupiscence gone awry.
Because Cain (that is, you, me and all humanity) dealt (and continue to deal) with that irksome Abel within us, we have to go out into this world and sweat and toil for what we think we need and want for ourselves, and carry the shame and angst buried deep.
So Cain takes a wife. Again the ‘authorized’ evangelicals find this a little troublesome. Taking all this Genesis information strictly at face value and literally, many commentators find difficulty coming to grips with Cain finding a wife. At this time, supposedly, there were no other folks around! There’s Adam and Eve, Abel (very recently deceased), and Cain. Commentators have reasoned that Cain must have married one of his sisters in that Adam, at 130 years when having Seth, "had other sons and daughters" as well, the Bible says. Actually, those "other sons and daughters" have an entirely different implication. Literal word-for-word transliterations and explanations will never serve adequately. So many commentaries actually add to the confusion. So now we come to…